i know.
how some of you are pissed with me right now.

you can judge if you want.
like how its natural for you to defend her.
because she is the victim.
because its natural for em to be the bad guy.

like how we joked about this a few days ago.

i thought we had mental preparation for this.
but we didnt.
it was much less than we thought it would be.

i'm staring at her, thinking how this could happen.

and it never occurred to you all to put yourselves in my shoes.